Discipline is just making the same choice every time no matter how you feel or what thoughts enter your mind. Your mind will lie to you with thoughts and feelings about why you can’t attend to a lecture. Treat your mind like a child pretending to be sick to get out of school.
Even if it is true that in the moment you aren’t focused or whatever other excuses your mind comes up with, so what? “Go to class” anyway. At worst you learn nothing but improve your discipline skills.
Set a regular time to watch the lectures so you can’t lie to yourself about doing it later.
I want to be clear, it isn’t about willing yourself through it despite everything even if it can read that way. It’s about honoring the choice you made to attend to the lectures and not accepting excuses from your mind.
Recognizing that you can choose, recognizing that past you had good intentions for you and deserves you to honor those intentions, and recognizing that your thoughts and feelings in the moment may not be true and “aren’t the boss of you” even if they are true helps tremendously.
Even if it is true that in the moment you aren’t focused or whatever other excuses your mind comes up with, so what? “Go to class” anyway. At worst you learn nothing but improve your discipline skills.
Set a regular time to watch the lectures so you can’t lie to yourself about doing it later.
I want to be clear, it isn’t about willing yourself through it despite everything even if it can read that way. It’s about honoring the choice you made to attend to the lectures and not accepting excuses from your mind.
Recognizing that you can choose, recognizing that past you had good intentions for you and deserves you to honor those intentions, and recognizing that your thoughts and feelings in the moment may not be true and “aren’t the boss of you” even if they are true helps tremendously.